The Fallen Angel

I stand here before you as I look in to your eyes, I stand here as I adore you as you look at me supriced as I open up my heart telling you that I loved you from the start, even so how come you find it so hard to understand ?

There is no reason for you not to trust me even though you find me confusing ,
but all I wanna do is to keep you in my arms and tell you what I feel as I find this so real.

For once im able to tell you what my heart’s wishing for,
as that is to be with you untill the end of time I want you to be mine.

Even though I miss you so I know you can never be mine, as my fate is revealed and im standing here alone for now and forever untill the end of time, i’ll have my heart broken and my soul lost as it was you that I loved.

It was you that I gave my trust as I took you in my arms as I wanted to keep you safe, but in the end I was’nt strong enough to keep it that way.

Now I just wish that moment could have stayed as it was the only time I felt alive, to have you by my side to feel how my pride was once restored.

Now as I look back to what we had it fills me with grief and I just feel sad, as they say ”you dont know what you have untill it’s lost” and belive me I wouldnt have made those choises if I would have known what it would have cost.

Alone and broken I once again am ,yet I’m trying to make my last stand .

Alone and broken I once again seem to be still I’m trying to understand what it is I can’t seem to see ?

What is it that makes me so open to pain and disspare still with no one beside me to care.

Alone and broken I was once before with my soul lost and my heart torn, still I managed to climb back up that steep cliff I fell, just to get knocked back down again.

For what purpose does my pain seem to have besides to tare me apart ?
How come I’m cursed with this burden alone ?

When will someone save me from all my ghosts, all my memories and nightmare and help me back in to the light ?

Darkness is all that is around me, it consumes me drains me of my will to continue this fight, still it feeds my hunger.

A hunger I once thought was lost still it has been revived , the hunger itself is like a thorn at my side it drives me to things I didn’t think I was capable of still there it is guiding my hand to do its bidding.

It’s taking over that I can not deny , for every day that goes by less of me there is to be saved.
No once cares no one but me, cause no one seems to see that my burden is changing me.

Ensam och kall sitter jag på bergets kant , mina vingar sveper jag om mig i hopp om att hålla kylan ute , men utan lycka för att istället se mina fjärdar falla en efter en som tecken på hur många bitar mitt hjärta fallit itu.

Jag känner hur kylan nu sveper om mig mer och mer för varje fjäder som lämnar mina vingar,
sakta ser jag dem falla ner för det branta och kalla berget, sakta och fridfullt ser jag dem sjunka djupare ner tills jag ser dem låtas slukas upp av mörkret .

En tår av is faller från min kind jag känner hur kylan blir mer intim ,
jag ser hur mina tårar följer mina fjädrar ner i mörkret som nu jag känner långsamt börja svepa om mig ,
jag höjer min blick som fastnar på min sista fjäder längst ut på min vinge, jag ser vinden greppa tag om den ,
jag känner hur den rycker och sliter tills den lämnar min vinger och faller ner.

Mitt hjärta har slutat bulta samt mina tårar slutat rinna ner för mina kinder samtidigt som jag faller ner för den branta bergs klippan mina vingar svepta om mig som ett tomt skal av kyla .

hej alla denna blogg är helt ny och ,mitt syfte med min blogg är att ja vill publisera lite av mina dikter, för allmänheten  och se  va folk må tycka om dom är alltid kul med kritik, och är det inte positiv  så gärna kreativ men helst inte negativ kritik =) .

Hur som helst ja hoppas att ni som finner min sida forsätter att besöka den i hopp om att ja fångat erat intresse =)

tack på förhand

Akatora