The Fallen Angel

I can’t sleep, I cant feel at ease, as for some reason my heart won’t find peace.
I can’t sleep as you are so far away ,oh how I wish for you to have stayed.
I can’t sleep as the nightmares keeps me awake, please someone help me see this through as I no longer know what to do.

I can’t sleep as my memories digs so deep in to my mind ,still im worried of what I may find.

I can’t sleep as im once more alone ,laying here on my bed im wishing there was someone beside me to hold and to feel something that can seem real

What’s with this wheel of time, why can’t I seem to find what it is that I seek ?!

Am I meant to be lost forever with no hope to be together with someone that I care for,
someone that will stand and wait by the door, someone that will be there when you really need that
person, that special one.

Someone to make you feel safe ,someone that will help you cry ,someone that  will explain just how and why.

Things may be as they are but as of now I just seem to have this one big scar that wont seem to heal, and all this just seems so unreal as I no longer can feel what it is that i want or need as my heart just keeps wanting to bleed as a seed of grief what is it that I should belive?