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Fragile mind

Posted in Dikter on Oktober 7th, 2009

Are you the one for me, am I the one for you ?

Would it be wrong to say that I miss you, cause that’s what I truly do.

Though i’m scared that you will run away, i’m scared that you won’t stay when I say that I care for you.

So what should I do now that I miss you, should I just wait for us to be togehter by fate ?

I want to be honest, I want you to know, but still I dont know what I should tell you and what side to show.

It may be to early still it can’t be helped, cause I feel as im about to brake in two as I want to tell you that I don’t want to lose you.

In return

Posted in Dikter on Oktober 2nd, 2009

I took you in as I wanted to bless you from your sin , still you took your time to pierce through my mind with your lies and false hopes, now I sit here wondering whenever it will stop ?!

One by one the tears that ive shed , have run down my face and fallen down on to my bed ,still I feel that this can’t be real yet I know that it is just so.

Shadows linger in my mind, though I wonder still what it is I may find ?

Though you forced me to leave your side, I know deep within that I have nowhere to hide, from the pain nor the agony as all I wanted was for you to see me.

I want so much to be alive, yet I dont know how long I will be able to survive.

This itching feeling I have wondering how it is that im sad  as  all ive ever recived, is people with false hopes wanting to plead to me asking me for forgivness , though I have none to give as I am only able to see the pain that you have granted me .

I hope your soul will die and burn, as for all the scars you have given me in return.

Betrayed

Posted in Dikter on Augusti 6th, 2009

It seems I was wrong as you were not one of those among.

I wish I could see, that we were not meant to be.

But instead I gave you my heart in your hand as I thought you would understand.

But you took it and broke it in two, and I so wished that this can’t be true, as ive never done anything to hurt you.

I try to understand as it was I who gave you my hand.

So why is it that you have hurt me so ?

As I now don’t have any choice but to let you go.

Deceive

Posted in Dikter on Augusti 6th, 2009

Your words echoes inside my head ,
and all I wish is for me to be dead.

As I lay here on my bed, tears I feel that I have shed.

And as they run down my face, I just wish I could be in another place.

All I ever wanted was for you to be free,
yet I don’t understand why you had to deceive me.

Ensam och Glömd

Posted in Dikter on Augusti 6th, 2009

Man vill ofta att folk förstår ,men tro mig med tiden läker inte alla sår.

Ett brutet hjärta är tyvär där för att stanna.

Att svida och ge en en evig pina, bara för att till slut stå där och förbanna ,att all denna smärta är här för att stanna.

Despair

Posted in Dikter on Juni 2nd, 2009

To deny what is rightfully your’s is hard but to deny fate is even worse, as for what curse is there to keep me from being alive ?

How come that no one will see me for who I am ?

How come that no one seem to understand that i’ll keep fallin in to oblivion untill the day you take your place beside me.

Still I know that hope is just an illussion it’s just a dream, as I can’t seem to see that day getting any closer anytime soon.

I had my hopes I had my dreams but in the end I stand here with all the screams and terror as I keep wondering what’s the error ?

How come things never change ?
How come no one can see me for who I am   ?

How come no one can understand , that even I need that special one, that one to hold ,that one to warm me when i’m cold.

Though my life slips away there is nothing more for me to say,  my body is numb.

Hunted (Forbidden love 2 )

Posted in Dikter on April 2nd, 2009

Together as we are, children of the night hunting expressing our love, as we look for prey as that’s just how we want it to stay .

But there are those that dont feel the same, that can’t understand that I took your hand and showed you a world without pain and missery just cause we want to be,  they just can’t seem to see.

So from being the hunters we are now being the hunted, alone still together we flee from those that dont seem to understand that I wanted your hand.

Even though I love thee there are those that can’t seem to see that we want to be.

They look at us like outcasts that isn’t among, they feel that we dont belong.

Missguided by their rage they hunt us for something they can’t understand, and as I take your hand we run, we flee just cause we want to be.

En mörk önskan

Posted in Dikter on April 2nd, 2009

Det sägs att när en vampyr gråter så fäller dom en enda tår   , dock är det ingen som förstår.

Men det var en vampyr som grät en tår av blod ej heller var det ingen som förstod.

Denna tår var så fylld av svek och smärta som han hade gömt djupt inne i sitt  hjärta, ett hjärta som ingen fick röra på grund av hans allt för tunga börda.

Fast kedjad till det förflutna och hans vingar som nu var brutna  önskade han att allt bara  ville sluta.

Hans önskan var också som så  att han hade nån vid sin sida som skulle förstå  samt  hjälpa att bära hans tunga hjärta som var fyllt med så mycket smärta.

På en bänk sitter han och tänker tillbaka som plötsligt en ung mö sätter sig bredvid och frågar:

”varför sitter du och gråter ?”

varpå han svarar:

”För att ja ej kommer att få mitt hjärta åter. ”

den unga mön sitter fundersamt  och tittar på han som hon svarar:

”men varför säger du så ?”

Den unge mannen svarar med en djup suck:

”Du får ursäkta om ja ej orkar förklara för du skulle ej förstå mig bara”.

”testa mig ” svarar den unga mön som ej heller visste om vad denne mans egentliga person var, dock blir hon ej bemött av ett svar , istället reser han sig och börjar gå .

Utan att tänka tar den unga mön hans kalla hand

””snälla stanna det känns som vi har fått ett bra band ””

ty den unge vampyr vänder sig om och ger henne en djup blick

”Ja är ledsen min sköna men ty ja må ha all tid i världen dock ej har ja någon kvar för ty du se bortom horisonten finns solen med mitt sista svar på att detta är mina sista dar” .

Plötsligt faller mön i tårar

”ta mig med låt mig få slicka dina sår åtminstone innan du går!?”

Mannen svarar

”Din inbjudan är mycket sund men ja måste vara ensam för denna stund  , ja kan ej släppa dig nära  för dig skulle ja bara besvära  med min börda , så om du nu ursäktar så måste ja gå , ja hoppas att nån som du kommer att förstå ”

Mannen tar hennes hand bort och efter inte alls så kort  så går han sin väg  in mot gryning in mot ljuset för äntligen skulle han få slippa all denna smärta som han har i sitt hjärta.

Questions

Posted in Dikter on April 1st, 2009

What is this clouded thought ?

what is it that I have forgot ?

Why isn’t there any memory of my past ?

How come they wont seem to last ?

What is this clouded mind ?

What is it that I can’t seem to find ?

How come that im so sad ?

Is it cause i’ve been bad ?

Oh why can’t I find someone that can make me happy !?

These are the questions I have in mind , still with no answer to find.

Forbidden love

Posted in Dikter on Mars 30th, 2009

As I walk the night knowing that you are sound asleep I have a gift that I want you to keep, still wishing for you to be by my side as we would hunt walking the night together.

As now that not the case may be still I feel your spirit calling to me, as I see you sound asleep with these nightmares you dont want to keep.

As I stand outside by your window wanting to enter but as im not able ,as the bounds of nature is holding us apart I feel a urge to go against it so that I may be by your side and protect you as times may be hard.

Still I go against the shackles that nature has put on me I enter your room with a lust for thee , and as you awake I take you in my arms as I offer you the kiss of immortality.

Togehter as we finally are I will heal all your scars as we will no longer be apart.


As now my blood flows in your vains the shackles that kepts us apart  is no longer
a restrain.

As you take your place by my side, we enter out in to the night to hunt , to feed as you have finally been freed.